the luckiest man on the planet

It sounds like the title of a movie, doesnt it? it could star some new hollywood hot shot, like Shia Lebeouf. or an aged veteran of the silver screen like Morgan Freeman. it can be a comedy, about some clumsy chap who always seems to narrowly escape death.

in fact, it's about me. it's about God bringing joy and redemption into my life. Nolan is now about 6 weeks old. it's amazing to watch him grow up. he's now starting to recognize our voices and has started to smile as well. I came home one day from work in a foul mood because i was stuck in traffic for about 90 minutes. I remember thinking to myself as i drove up how unhappy i was at the gridlock. I was not happy at all. I came into our bedroom, where my wife was holding our son Nolan. I said to him, "how's my little guy doing? does he miss daddy?" for the next few minutes, he smiled so big that he lit up the room. I snapped the picture above with my camera phone. i've never been so happy before. i completely forgot that i sat through 90 minutes of exhaust fumes. ah, fatherhood is good!

the difficulties of being a new parent

let me preface all of this by saying that I love my son to death. I would give my life to save his. He is such a blessing to Lisa and I.

Nolan has been crying a lot lately. is it colic? is it reflux? we dont know. All we know is that the poor guy has been crying his eyes out at certain times of the day. We try to soothe him by offering the pacifier, shushing him, etc. Occasionally it helps, sometimes, it doesnt. it's so heart wrenching to see little nolan cry. his voice gets hoarse and his face turns red. It's times like these that makes me question my ability to parent. it's strained the both of us. it's also strained our relationship with each other.

sometimes i just dont know what to do.

my perfect day

I didnt feel any different when i woke up today. My bones didnt ache, i didnt feel cranky. In fact, i didnt feel a day older. i woke up earlier to feed Nolan and to change his diaper. Nolan is going to be a morning person, because he always smiles at me despite the fact the sun isnt out yet. I then went for a jog with a friend around the pasadena area. we met at Borders, ran down to san marino, in front of the Huntington Library, and back through caltech back to Borders. We then had a cup of coffee. My parents then came over, and we later met up with my brother and his family at Mission 261 for Dim Sum. As usual, we ordered way too much food. After lunch, we came home, where Lisa and I took a nap. I couldnt sleep very well, so i woke up early to watch a dvd. Teresa, Dave, and family came by for a visit, but couldnt stay very long. After a home cooked meal, Lisa and I took our dog, Mila, and Nolan out for an early evening walk. when we got home, Lisa gave me a haircut. As we get ready for bed, i couldnt help but smile and thank God that he blessed me today, with a perfect day.